Aug 29 2012

Anticipating Ruth

Rebekyah Brewer
This entry is part 2 of 8 in the series Ruth

2077_n I’ve spent the past few days gathering information on Ruth, trying to get a general overview of the book and a feel for the upcoming study. I have been looking forward to this study since we drew it’s name out of the basket. It’s a book I’ve read several times, and read several studies on, but I have never really dug into it for myself.  I always get so much more out of a study, when I am forced to wrestle with it and dig into it myself.  And it seems, I am never able to dig as hard as when I am having to teach on it.

Teaching always intensifies my study time and prayer time with God, because unless He opens my minds to understand the scripture, unless He enables me, and His spirit works through me,  I have no hope of teaching anything. I have nothing good in myself to give.  I will have nothing to feed the ladies when I sit down before them. I don’t want to give them empty facts or lifeless knowledge which is all I can come up with by myself.  I want to give them spirit-filled words that haunt them long after they leave the study. Words that dig their way into the depths of their hearts and lodge themselves there, unable to be forgotten or shaken loose until slowly but surely the Spirit brings about new life through them.

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Jan 26 2010

1 John Women’s Bible Study Why I’m Excited!

Rebekyah Brewer

FlyerIt’s Been A Long Time

I just wanted to share with you some reasons why I am excited about this upcoming bible study on Thursday night. The first reason why I am excited is because it’s the first time I have been able to teach in a year! I feel a little bit like a race horse that has been penned up and scrapping the ground in anticipation. A teacher not being able to teach is like taking a paintbrush away from an artist or a voice from a singer. It’s been absolute misery at times not being able to outwardly express the joy and beauty that God floods you with. This has been such an unusual experience. It is hard to believe that  it was only short 5 or 6 years ago when God initially began to nudge me to teach that I was such a basket of fear and anxiety. It was never my desire to teach. I’ve always hated and feared any type  of public speaking. My greatest desire was always to blend in, not stand in front of  a class or any other group of people and call attention to myself.  That was always my worst nightmare.  But God actually called me, by planting that desire in my heart and slowly intensifying it until I gave in. I was absolutely miserable for an extremely long period of time as I tried to hide and contain the growing desire to share with others what I was seeing in Christ.  The more I studied the more miserable I became.  I was overfilled with no outlet.  Soon  my desire to teach far outweighed my fear of teaching and I was broken.  This is how God moves us sometimes.  This is a picture of what it means to be called, even when it is against your will. He simply changes our will to match his own.

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